I know it’s hard to tell how mixed up you feel
Hoping what you need is behind every door
Each time you get hurt, I don’t want you to change
Because everyone has hopes, you’re human after all
The feeling sometimes
wishing you were someone else
Feeling as though you never belong
This feeling is not sadness, this feeling is not joy
I truly understand, please don’t cry now
|—||VNV Nation - Illusion|
We drank bottled water together and talked business.
I think I played the right moves.
You were looking over my shoulder,
As I went through the motions of another night.
And it is was alright, ‘cause I thought I knew
Who everybody was, oh, just by looking at them.
My heart, is anywhere but here!
And how tired I was from the past couple weeks,
From the past couple years,
Well, it hit me all at once.
On a balcony overlooking nothing,
With snow falling all around,
Well, I, I called just to say good night.
And you hadn’t done anything wrong,
And, no, really, really, it’s me not you.
I can’t believe how naive I was
To think things could ever be so simple.
And can you live with what you know,
About yourself, when you’re all alone behind closed doors.
The things we never said but always knew were right there.
It’s got me on my knees in a bathroom,
Praying to a god that I don’t even believe in,
“Well, dear Jesus…are you listening?!”
If this is the one chance that really matters,
Well, don’t let me fuck this up.
If you had told me about all this when I was fifteen,
I never would have believed it.”
Tonight We’re Gonna Give It 35%
My shuttle to ATL is in 7ish hours and I still have to pack. Why is it during time crunches that I make the most introspection? Thinking about how to update my wardrobe, change my legal name, start HRT, get a decent haircut, get my eyebrows done. And weeping along to sad music. <3 Against Me and RVIVR
“And I would be taken and held against my will?”
“If you tell me you’re feeling suicidal right now, today, this very minute, then yes.”
“Then I’m not suicidal.”
“You’re not suicidal right now?”
“No. Not at all.”
|—||Emilie Autumn - The Asylum For Wayward Victorian Girls|
I’m not sure but I think I just accidentally created a legendary Pokemon
im like 98% weird kinks and 2% water
Its funny, looking at what I wear now versus what I wore a couple years ago. I still dress pretty masculine, but its a far shot better than how I used to be, lol.